Shadows

A long time ago when I was a student in Australia, I was taught a valuable lesson of life in the field of relationships. One could say I was young and still learning or you could say that till one experiences something, one doesn't know the feeling or the situation exists.It should come as no surprise that it was a girl who taught me something in the finest and cleanest of ways. WORDS. They seem so simple and yet they mean so much. One doesn't realize it until much later. So how did this lesson of life be introduced to me? The same way life goes on, Guy sees Girl, wants to get friendly with no hidden motive but building a friends circle millions of miles from home. We started talking and found we had lots to share and were very comfortable. She told me she had a boyfriend who was out of town for a while. I could be wrong but then when a loved one is away for a while, one does feel kind of void and empty. This is the crucial time of knowing how deep the love for a person really is. She started opening up to me about her life. I was just being myself-friendly and caring. I knew something was happening between us which I knew wasn't right as she was already in a relationship and the last thing I wanted to do was come between. She could feel it to and then she wrote to me and sent me a mail. WORDS. These words which were penned down with utmost care and meaning showed me what feelings can really do to people and how one has to be careful with people of the opposite sex when in a relationship. I never felt hurt because she was direct and I knew what relationships were all about. One cannot let an outside person get to close when in a relationship. The friendship might be absolutely with a clean heart but the other person is a human being and will get hurt because in such cases feelings cannot be controlled so well. In order to make relationships work, one has to be careful and watch the path of feelings the tread on. Let me share with you what she wrote and then maybe one can understand it better.

You live in a world full of shadows,
mine art but full of passing meadows.
What is it that I'm seeing across my path?
A fragment of your shadow, inviting yet dark.

Words that were long ago silenced,
now spill out like an overflowing chalice.
Did you think before you confessed reluctantly,
did you think what your words did to me.

One survivor battles the tide
the other has too many secrets to hide.
Im overwhelmed with emotions that have no meaning,
No definition.... what is it that Im feeling.

Im trapped in your grasp and you won't let go
maybe I don't want you to, but I'll never know.
They say truth hurts, but truth is reality.
My Truth!Your shadows have overcome me.

I want to say so much, but I don't understand
The atrocity is that there is a pen in my hand.
I didn't know your words could mean so much
It's like falling in love without being able to touch.

So as you can see, she was strong and I respected her and gave her space but it also taught me how to handle relationships. One must be wondering how this affected me. Here is the truth. A few years on. After being deeply in love with someone for a year and a half who I thought was the one, It was over just like that. How? She had let some young kid hit on her and had let her emotions go without caring about how someone might feel. She lied about everything as she let her self get closer and closer to this other guy without listening to anyone who cared about her (adults and family)She was so adamant that she was doing the right thing. She couldn't see the pain and suffering she was causing all around. Human feelings are fragile and need to be controlled and cared for at all times.